ciNz

STAY ( BE THE ONE )

I saw you last night,
down at the mere
I saw your hands were playing gently with her hair
I see you and I, in my mirror
I close my eyes and wish that you could be here
it's my fantasy to have you holding me, baby
going privately crazy
do you know what you do with me

Stay, make my blue moon bright for a change
make my dreams end right
don't stay, afraid
be the one

(yea, eyeyey)

Get out of my head, get into my heart
be for real, are you fictional or real,
I made up this lie, I made up this life
when I'm alone it's like you're right here by my side
it's my fantasy to have you here with me, baby
going privately crazy
if you came I know just what I'd say

Stay, make my blue moon bright for a change
make my world turn right
don't stay, afraid
be the one

(heye, yeyeyeye)

It's my fantasy to have you all to me, baby
I'm going privately crazy
do you know what you do with me

Stay, make my blue moon bright for a change
make my dreams end right
don't stay, afraid
be the one

the gurl i've become ..

swallowed by pain..but she holds her head high.
she's fully alive..but feels so far away.
she loves life..but not the clocks hands.
they are steadily turning..giving her no time to breathe.
time goes by quickly..wishing she could stop & go back.
but would she be happy..if she had the things from her past?
her thoughts are screaming..fix yourself girl.
but she pulls herself together..only to fall back down.
she's a complete mess..wishing someone could save her.
but hers walls stand strong..she wont let no one help her.
the pain she feels..brings her to her knees.
she crys alone..never lets anyone see.
lost in a world of anger & hate.
trying so hard to light up her darkness.
this girl ive become..isnt me.
how much longer will this keep going?
i want to fly..set me free.
bring back that girl..who had no worries.

he's gone ..

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i smile out all the way this morning
hoping this will never end
sun is shining above
heaven is smiling on me
music begins playing
slowly i've becoming insane for something


i saw you
walked behind me
it reminds me of those wounds you made
i just smile
and turn my back off
hoping it will never happen again


music begins to end
guitar sound drives me to daydreaming
an endless dreaming where
you and me were together
and no more wounds you will make

neverending story
of you and me

HOPE U'LL LiKE iT ..

hihi .. stolen p0em fr0m unkn0wn auth0r ..

~UNTiTLED~


~~it really hurts to think..
~~that you're with the girl in pink..
~~i saw you were both with link..
~~and that can make me sink..
~~im hurting everytime you hold her hand..
~~just like tinkerbell lost her wand..
~~but you can smoothen my anger..
~~eventhough you're after her..
~~you ripped my heart into pieces..
~~it's hard to fix just like my thesis..
~~hard to accept 'coz it's a play..
~~and all i can really do is to cry.. and cry..

` NOBODY WANTS BEiNG PLAYED ..

ever since i've left my ex b0yfriend..
i really feel s0 different..
the way i talk, i smile, i laugh,
and the way i treat others ..
sum says i changed my wh0le me ..
i became m0re weird, stupid and alm0st crazy .
they said i shud be s0rry f0r leaving him .
d0n't dey realize h0w much i've hurt myself
wen i left him ?
i d0nt care wat wud they say.
f0r i kn0w, i just av0id my feelings t0 gr0w
and get deeper with him .
i d0nt wanna get hurt .
i l0ve him but i ch0se t0 break his heart .

and its f0r our own gud .

i kn0w i'm t0o y0ung t0 be inl0ve.

dey must understand it ..

` the hELL i CARE !!!

what reaLLy meSs me uP ?!
i d0nt undErstAnd .. it is just that i cant start all over again ..
an sket ng puso ku ..
hay ! bket gn0n ?! i can't f0rget it ..
sa dame ng dumaan sken .. xa pa gmwa sken n0n ..
bwct tlga ! iniwan nia cu ..
tp0s naun bblik xa pra sbhn mahal nia pa c0h ..
tangna tlga ! un b un mhal ..
cnktan nia lan acu !!!
i can't f0rgive .. and i d0n't kn0w why .. =((
an sket2 tlga ..
plz .. i need s0me1 to unchain my heart
that still holding on ..
hay ! how d0 i start t0 live my life al0ne ..
i really d0n't kn0w h0w ..
i gueSs i'm jUst leaRning ..
h0w t0 let him g0 ..

i d0n't get attached ..

hey, im cindy.. also known as cindz,cin, vhakz, pare ..

any of them will d0. hmm, age 0f 16 , as 0f n0w, i'm kinda single .
well, i sh0uld enj0y it. i made the wr0ng ch0ice 0f leaving s0me0ne l0ving me s0 much behind. just f0r a stupid reas0n that even I can't understand.
hmmm, i am still n0t c0ntented w/ my life. i d0nt kn0w why. i think there is still a missing part.. and its driving me crazy . i keep 0n searchin and l0oking f0r it but i still feel incomplete.
i always laugh, smile, and r0ving ar0und just t0 hide my reaL feelings. i d0nt think that crying w0uld lessen the pain i felt f0r s0 many days.. why is is hard f0r them t0 acCept the real me? they always want me t0 change. t0 react in a nice way .. and t0 f0rget all the bitterness..
i must ap0logized f0r they rec0gnized me as a bad gurL. i d0nt want t0 give them a fake smile. a fake laugh.. their pr0mises are n0thing but sp0ken w0rds t0 me.. besides, my g0al n0w is t0 get 0ver t0 the past .. and never get it back .. because i d0n't get attached unless s0me0ne tell me he's n0t gonna pLay w/ me..

LUV ONLY HURTS !!

I JUST REALIZED BY NOW THAT LOVE ONLY PLAYS ..
PLAYS YOUR HEART, YOUR MIND ..
AND ALL THE THINGS AROUND YOU ..
YOU MADE YOURSELF THE RIGHT ONE JUST FOR HIM,
BUT IN THE END, YOU STILL LOST !


I CRIED SO MUCH FOR HIM,
DIED EVERY SECOND WHEN I SEE
THAT EVERY LITTLE THING ABOUT US IS NOW FORGOTTEN ..

HE'S NOW OVER ME..
WELL THAT'S GOOD.. BUT I JUST CANT UNDERSTAND,
WHY I KEEP ON WAITING??
WHILE IN OUR MINDS, WE MUST GET OVER AND START ALL OVER AGAIN.

I KNOW, HE LOVES ME, BUT KEEPS ME IN DENIAL,
MADE MY LIFE MISERABLE ..
BUT STILL, I SHOULD BE THANKFUL.
CUZ HE LET ME REALIZED HOW STUPID I WAS !!

GIVING MY ALL AND BE LEFT ALONE ..
IT REALLY HURTS ..
THAT AT THIS MOMENT, I WISH TO DIE..
TO AVOID THE PAIN,
TO STOP MY TEARS FROM FALLING ..
TO FORGET HOW HE BROKE ME..
SO BADLY !!

i th0ught u weRe miNe ;[

I can't find a reason to let go
Even though you've found a new love
And she's what your dreams are made of
I can't find a reason to hang on
What went wrong can be forgiven
Without you it ain't worth livin' alone
Sometimes I wake up crying at night
And sometimes I scream out your name
What right does she have to take your heart away
When for so long you were mine

Took out all the pictures of our wedding day
It was a time of love and laughter Happy ever after
But even those old pictures have begun to fade
Please tell me she's not real
And that you're really comin' home to stay

Sometimes I wake up crying at night
And sometimes I scream out your name
What right does she have to take your heart away
When for so long you were mine

I can give you two good reasons
To show how you love's not blind
He's two and she's four
And you know they adore you
So how can I tell them
You've changed your mind

Sometimes I wake up crying at night
And sometimes I scream out your name
What right does she have to take your heart away
When for so long you were mine

[and n0w i'm al0ne]
-ciNz-

.. WAT IT IS TO BURN ?? ..

She burns
Today's on fire
The sky is bleeding above me,
and I am blistered
I walk these lines of blasphemy,
every day And still:
Like a bad star,
I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows,
what it is to burn

I feel diseased
Is there no sympathy from the sun?
The sky's still fire But I am safe in here,
from the world outside
So tell me What's the price to pay for glory?

Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows,
what it is to burn Today is fire,
and she burns Today is fire,
and she burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns

Like a bad star,
I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows,
what it is to burn..